amber is the color of your energy

...you've launched a thousand ships in my heart.

i think of myself in comparison to my law school counterparts and i am so dramatic.  i swear.  it's a little ludicrous.  but, there's a person who can bring me back down from the heights of ridiculous (or sometimes he lets me stay there for a while, just to pacify my pain).  he can talk me down from the mental ledge that stands between me and most emotional outbursts.  he stays calm in the eye of the storm and it helps me stay focused (or distracts me when i need it - and he wakes me up from my ten minute naps).

this is an ode to my law school hero - nick lamb.  thanks friend.  you're kind of okay.

laziest (but still good) breakfast ever

step 1:  buy canadian bacon (nice b/c it is already cooked and perfectly shaped for our purposes), eggs, and extra crisp english muffins, and american cheese

step 2:  wake up in the morning feeling super lazy and wanting something warm to eat

step 3:  put a split muffin in toaster, beat an egg then put it in a coffee cup that's been sprayed with PAM, put said coffee cup in microwave and heat for 40 seconds exactly.  by this time, your muffin should be about done.  layer the canadian bacon and american cheese on one side of the muffin and turn the coffee cup over onto your little muffin mountain of breakfast goodness.   top with other half of muffin and you've got yourself a cute little breakfast sandwich.

oh yeah, and put that coffee cup in the dishwasher.

swirling leaves and swirling thoughts

i always say that i hate it when it is windy and that's only partially true.   when it is windy and i am on campus, i don't hate it as much.  it makes me think of my first fall quarter at UCLA and what an exciting time in my life that was.

this is an exciting time, too, and sometimes i have to remind myself of that out loud (literally tell myself that this is exciting).  i know it doesn't feel like it right now, but the tough moments are usually the moments a person remembers the most - because of all the effort it took to make it through and whatnot.  i can't wait til i can look back at this time in my life and think about how silly i was to worry about the things i worry about now.  in the end, i know my worries are silly sometimes, but it's easy to forget that when i'm so close to it.  myopic perspectives are generally not conducive to rational thoughts.

Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy!

best week of law school by far.  two of my fave people are in my study group now.  BOOYA.  also, we ate really well...spicy ramen, lobster, homemade chili, filet (it was a week of indulgence...not the usual pb&j's).  the girls came over for some wine and venting - have i told you i know the funniest girls in law school?  it wasn't hard to find them...just see who laughs at your jokes and VOILA.  (this method operates under the assumption that i'm remotely funny)

to top it off, on the ride home from [a fabulous] dinner tonight, my mom told me how elated she was about how i "turned out" - she told me how proud she was of me and all that kind of good stuff.  i cried.  seriously.   i mean, isn't that all i've really ever wanted?? to make my momma proud?!  it was one of my bestest moments ever.

and i'm gonna make her even prouder.  just you wait and see!  

Loves + Pet Peeves (in law school and in real life)

...because law school is not representative of real life.

Loves:
really good food (duh), pictures of really good food, inside jokes, cookbooks, funny people, cyberstalking, red red wine, office supplies, color-coding, freshly washed sheets, nutella on anything, vintage prints, wit and sarcasm and other crap.


Pet Peeves 
In Law School:
1.  Gunners.  ENOUGH SAID.
2.  People who try to get to their locker and shove you along the way and don't even say sorry!  HMPH.
3.  Extra loud talkers - in class, at the library, in the courtyard, and in the ladies room.  You're at a 10 and I need you at a 2.
4.  Words I have to look up in the law dictionary.

In Real Life:
1.  Chronic tardiness - it's insulting.  Everyone is late once in a while but when it's habitual, I will put you on the shit list in permanent marker.
2.  Really old nail polish on dirty toes, especially if you are dressed really nicely.  It's just an attention to detail thing.
3.  Protruding undergarments with the exception of bra straps (because I can't hate on you for a stray bra strap every now and then).  If I can see your bra or your underwear sticking out from your clothing, it makes me cringe.
4.  Excessive complaining/general ingratitude.  This is not to say I don't complain, because making this list is a complaint in itself.  I just don't like it when people complain about dumb things too often.  If you have a roof over your head, food in your belly, and clothes on your back, I think you're in pretty good shape.

i want to...

...ram my head into a wall.

wow

law school sucks sometimes. i never believed you brian park. i never believed you and i'm sorry.